Someone asked me that evenfall :

"You have been knowing that i like you all this time, yet why did't you ignore me? I mean, for a girl, if you know that one of your boy-friend likes you, don't you feel a little awkward to stay close with him as everything he does around you are concealed love expression. Beside, you don't want to make a further relationship. So why you don't take a step back or even move away from me?"

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Errr.., it's a kind of question that i will give an answer :

"I don't know. Why should i?"

Because friendship has no reason... , except destiny.

A Man With Fringe Hair

There goes another tiring day when i should scavenging the remain encouragement for getting back to the real life, will or no will.  Like a bundle paper, report, lab works were waiting to give me another sleepless night.

In the midle of life and dead in doing my duty, i remember that i got another thing to do, my campus Christian organization asked me to lead the recycle Christmas tree project for the a state competition.

First thing that suddenly crossed my mind was that my class ever won the  first place of Christmas tree decoration in junior high school. But i really couldn't recall what was the tree made of (as i remembered, it just wasn't pine or tree branch).

So i decided to contact the one that incharged in that tree made, the second prefect at that time. Unfortunately, her number that saved in my phone wasn't in use anymore. I started to contact all her close friends at junior high school one by one asking her number, but i reach up to a girl name which sat me down and had me deep in thought.

Let's call her miss.A. She was a girl who is being liked by one of my other friend until now. This other shy fellow like miss.A since junior high school, so it's about 5-6 years now. And yet, it was so stuck, even not many who know it.

Therefore, i throw him another blind chances. Instead of asking miss.A, i sent an sms to that fellow :

me : hey, u hav *** phone number that in use now? if u don, can u ask miss.A?? (^_^)V

friend : he? Wat for? Ok, ill ask her.. 

me: some important things that i had to remember from junior hs. tell me asap as u know ya...

friend : waiting her reply now.. Btw why u not ask miss.A yourself?  

me: still askin that huh?? (-_-) i wont ask her... 

friend : why not? Tell me why.. 

me : lame.. dats ur job! (-_-) 

friend : wat the... Well, she probably sleep by now.. 

Here.. xxxxxxxxxxx, its miss.A number, just in case u hav some urgent matter.. remember, we're still not in relation status yet, me still waiting 4 her answer.. 

me : yea i know. thats why im giving u more chances.. 

friend : Meh -___-.. Just ask her...

No reply.. She already fall asleep.. 

I guess so. Subtle rejection by not replying his message, going offline if he chatted her,ignored him, etc etc. No, being rejected is still better than being ignored. But the worst is being rejected by being ignored.

That was what happening...

Next day was another hectic day and i was totally forget about the Christmas tree or the second prefect number. But in the middle of night, my phone beeped :

friend : Hav u ask miss.A yourself? Sometime she hav a habit to forget to reply.. ahahaha

i was too tired to take care of those thing that night so i leaved that message uncared. In few minutes another wild sms appeared :

friend : Demn salah kirim lg, k ***** kkirimnya td aarrghhh kacau.. (traslation : damn, i sent to wrong number. TO MISS.A NUMBER!! CATASTROPHE!!)

In instant, the atmosphere in my room changed...

and i brusted into laughter that maybe could awake my next room dorm neighbour...

and wild sms appeared again :

friend : Great, im just telling directly to her, about her habit.. Nice duh...

may reply to him was only like :

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahh.. 

friend : Arrgh u not helping.. Headache, she may not reply.. But at least she read it.. 

friend : Great im an idiot...

me : whoaa.. thats not including my idea. don suicide,Ok..!? relax, explain.. it will be just fine. any reply from her? 

friend : Wat give me goosebumps is when she not replying.. Can't sleep well tonite, dat 4 sure..

It may looked evil while my friend was dying near a heart attack, i was dying of laughter (even i still find it funny now). But this story had a good ending for all some hour later :

friend : Hah thx god she reply.. I'm look like an idiot.. At least i can rest a little easy.

well, the reply wasn't bad thing either, just a sorry from miss.A because of not answering his message...

So, i told him that he owed me, but he insisted that he didn't. Whatever but at last he got another chances to make a communication with someone he liked and even she replied back, a rare case...

Who knows that this incident might leads another bravery from him to communicate another love to her? Who knows... He still owed me.

So there we are...

so there we are, back to somewhere inside the reality ...

place where we dream and learn about future

place where we meet strangers, new friends, new families, and more strangers

place where we awkwardly give a try to fit in the society

place where we fall in love, have a broken heart, then fall another one...

place where we make mistakes, depressed, but there's always another chance to smile

place where we train to face the world without father on your back or mother to hold your hand

place where we fight and grow up to be SOMEBODY

Pimping My Blog

There! I had really pimped my blog this spring holiday ( cause we don't have winter holiday T.T ). And i'm quiet drowned for it till i forget about the post. Will update much much later, just wait.

Why black?

After all of the blogwalking, the only colour that caught my eyes was black. Many of black blogs look very cool and elegant. So i gave it a try, and it suits mine just fine.

And i gave a little touch up for the header...

Hope you like it !!

the thing i would never get used to

is being away from home sweet home.

It's been three years since i have been staying in another city for study. Though it's just an hour and half to get back to home and i almost do that every weekend, but yeah, i got that homesickness too.

Well now days, it's not like the homesick in early years when i shed tears each time the train i taken leave my hometown. But when it comes to Friday that i will be home soon, days was suddenly getting brighter, time was flying faster, and everything seems very right.

I prefer say it 'back home rush', than homesickness. And that's quiet normal, because i guess it's happening to every single person who's being away and finally had a chance to meet someone they loved or cared. Like Family.

Just in my case, that chances comes more oftentimes... :-)

Apathy

Talking about that word, first thing crossed my mind is Wang Yue. He is the 2 years old child that hit by two cars while eleven near passerby-s just apathetically walk away without even helping her. Very ironic yes.

Is apathy a result of modernization of this world? Has our people lost the humanity more day by day or it's just Chinese moral like many said?

I'm not a racist and i completely disagree with the last one.

Apathy, is not reasonless. Let me tell you a story from my day.

We studied in dentistry faculty which, everyone know, a lot of money will be spent. There's a work using the gyps. A friend of mine had just brought a plastic bag of gyps. Another friend ask her if she had any gyps left instead of buying a plastic by herself, the she gave some. And then another friend who knew it asked too, and another and another and another until when she was going to use it again, she found that the plastic had emptied.

That's not happened once or twice. Moreover, it's a common situation in my faculty. Another friend of mine even ever said,"When you bought a materials and brought it to the laboratory class, you have to ready to loose it all, though the instruction said you just need to use a little."

Well then, some student (including me) sometimes decide to "not saying out loud" (or 'hide' =D) when we have material stock during the class. Even if we knew someone need it. Apathy. But if you don't do that, yeah you has a pure gold heart, and you will run out your monthly transfered money before half of the month.

What am i saying here is, human is born as social creature. And every human does. So, how the apathy come? You probably have guess the answer : society.
Uncared environment, autocratic rules and policy, hardness of economic, how we treated by them, that will build our character. Our apathy rate.

The question comes always the same. If i were one of the passerby in Wang Yue accident, will i help her? Easy to answer by words. But when the real situation comes, will we be the good Samaritan?

you have to imagine everything, even the worst... because reality doesn't have a place for feelings... (an old grandma from volume 1 - Hunter x Hunter © Togashi Yoshihiro)

The Royal Wedding

Yogyakarta also has its Royal Wedding...

Yogyakarta's Palace, Keraton Kasultanan, had just held a wedding of the Sultan's (the King) younger daughter, Gusti Kanjeng Ratu Bendara with Kanjeng Pangeran Haryo Yudanegara. The ceremony started from 16 till 18 October 2011, but what's special was at the 18.

It called "Pesta Rakyat", literally means Party for the Citizen in Yogyakarta. And there were about 200 FREE food stand (we call it "angkringan") along the Malioboro street for us to enjoy while the bride and groom did the parade in the street.

At first i thought the Sultan reserved and paid all the food stand owner for the citizen to enjoy. But later i knew that it was the sellers own willingness to give the food for free as an offering for the wedding celebration.

And that gave me an impression like,"Whoooaaa, people in Yogyakarta are unbelievably kind-hearted!!"

Suddenly, i felt very lucky having a chance to live among them.

The garland made from young coconut leaves means 

there's a wedding being held

Then, the second special thing is The Rain.

I'm not a believer, but it's not weird when almost all the city around Yogya had started to rain and Yogya still as hot as ever (my temperature often get 40 degree of Celcius at noonday). I ensured my friend, who isn't a believer either, if the rain was falling down a day after the wedding, they really declined the rain for the parade.

And IT WAS. Sudden strange rain in the middle of day at 19 October. 

What a superpower...

There it is, a little story from Yogyakarta's Royal Wedding, what might not happen in another royal wedding... Congratulation for the couple and Happy Raining day for all the citizen in Yogya!! :)

Memorers :

The crowds in the Malioboro street

Us in the middle of the crowds

The couple in the middle of crowds

(note : from solopos.com, not me taken the picture =D)