Someone asked me that evenfall :

"You have been knowing that i like you all this time, yet why did't you ignore me? I mean, for a girl, if you know that one of your boy-friend likes you, don't you feel a little awkward to stay close with him as everything he does around you are concealed love expression. Beside, you don't want to make a further relationship. So why you don't take a step back or even move away from me?"

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Errr.., it's a kind of question that i will give an answer :

"I don't know. Why should i?"

Because friendship has no reason... , except destiny.

A Man With Fringe Hair

There goes another tiring day when i should scavenging the remain encouragement for getting back to the real life, will or no will.  Like a bundle paper, report, lab works were waiting to give me another sleepless night.

In the midle of life and dead in doing my duty, i remember that i got another thing to do, my campus Christian organization asked me to lead the recycle Christmas tree project for the a state competition.

First thing that suddenly crossed my mind was that my class ever won the  first place of Christmas tree decoration in junior high school. But i really couldn't recall what was the tree made of (as i remembered, it just wasn't pine or tree branch).

So i decided to contact the one that incharged in that tree made, the second prefect at that time. Unfortunately, her number that saved in my phone wasn't in use anymore. I started to contact all her close friends at junior high school one by one asking her number, but i reach up to a girl name which sat me down and had me deep in thought.

Let's call her miss.A. She was a girl who is being liked by one of my other friend until now. This other shy fellow like miss.A since junior high school, so it's about 5-6 years now. And yet, it was so stuck, even not many who know it.

Therefore, i throw him another blind chances. Instead of asking miss.A, i sent an sms to that fellow :

me : hey, u hav *** phone number that in use now? if u don, can u ask miss.A?? (^_^)V

friend : he? Wat for? Ok, ill ask her.. 

me: some important things that i had to remember from junior hs. tell me asap as u know ya...

friend : waiting her reply now.. Btw why u not ask miss.A yourself?  

me: still askin that huh?? (-_-) i wont ask her... 

friend : why not? Tell me why.. 

me : lame.. dats ur job! (-_-) 

friend : wat the... Well, she probably sleep by now.. 

Here.. xxxxxxxxxxx, its miss.A number, just in case u hav some urgent matter.. remember, we're still not in relation status yet, me still waiting 4 her answer.. 

me : yea i know. thats why im giving u more chances.. 

friend : Meh -___-.. Just ask her...

No reply.. She already fall asleep.. 

I guess so. Subtle rejection by not replying his message, going offline if he chatted her,ignored him, etc etc. No, being rejected is still better than being ignored. But the worst is being rejected by being ignored.

That was what happening...

Next day was another hectic day and i was totally forget about the Christmas tree or the second prefect number. But in the middle of night, my phone beeped :

friend : Hav u ask miss.A yourself? Sometime she hav a habit to forget to reply.. ahahaha

i was too tired to take care of those thing that night so i leaved that message uncared. In few minutes another wild sms appeared :

friend : Demn salah kirim lg, k ***** kkirimnya td aarrghhh kacau.. (traslation : damn, i sent to wrong number. TO MISS.A NUMBER!! CATASTROPHE!!)

In instant, the atmosphere in my room changed...

and i brusted into laughter that maybe could awake my next room dorm neighbour...

and wild sms appeared again :

friend : Great, im just telling directly to her, about her habit.. Nice duh...

may reply to him was only like :

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahh.. 

friend : Arrgh u not helping.. Headache, she may not reply.. But at least she read it.. 

friend : Great im an idiot...

me : whoaa.. thats not including my idea. don suicide,Ok..!? relax, explain.. it will be just fine. any reply from her? 

friend : Wat give me goosebumps is when she not replying.. Can't sleep well tonite, dat 4 sure..

It may looked evil while my friend was dying near a heart attack, i was dying of laughter (even i still find it funny now). But this story had a good ending for all some hour later :

friend : Hah thx god she reply.. I'm look like an idiot.. At least i can rest a little easy.

well, the reply wasn't bad thing either, just a sorry from miss.A because of not answering his message...

So, i told him that he owed me, but he insisted that he didn't. Whatever but at last he got another chances to make a communication with someone he liked and even she replied back, a rare case...

Who knows that this incident might leads another bravery from him to communicate another love to her? Who knows... He still owed me.

When Need Boyfriend???

That's question come to me after some dicussion with my friends...
When the girls gathered, two things that will come up to the conversation are (1)gossip and (2)boys.

So, this is a story of my friend that finally trying to get close with someone after being single (read : jomblo) for about twenty years (yea man, TWENTY YEARS). And tell you the truth, maybe a high school student will handle it very much better...
She's jumping around when she got text from him.
She's acting hysterically just seeing him passing by in the campus.
She's screaming to us when he tagging her in facebook status.
etc, etc...
Isn't it to much?

Maybe you find that funny, but for a girl that never had a realtionship before, it's...not really, but yeah, normal. Even if you are 20 or above.

If you remember your first relationship again, maybe it's about like that, it's just happened in younger age so it's perfectly normal.

But, if that was happening in university age, you can say it's kinda silly because it's already an era where you spoke love directly in front of the person that you like and making serious commitment for the real future.

So, we do need boyfriend at least in high school. That's my assumptions (for some people).
Then we won't be in too much euphoria when someone told that he loves you (finger crossed) and won't be too desperate if it doesn't work like the fairy tale that we always dreamt
because..., you've been through this once before, haven't you? So, it's always become eeeeasier for the next.

And the bad news is, i also haven't had one...