Someone asked me that evenfall :

"You have been knowing that i like you all this time, yet why did't you ignore me? I mean, for a girl, if you know that one of your boy-friend likes you, don't you feel a little awkward to stay close with him as everything he does around you are concealed love expression. Beside, you don't want to make a further relationship. So why you don't take a step back or even move away from me?"

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Errr.., it's a kind of question that i will give an answer :

"I don't know. Why should i?"

Because friendship has no reason... , except destiny.

A Man With Fringe Hair

There goes another tiring day when i should scavenging the remain encouragement for getting back to the real life, will or no will.  Like a bundle paper, report, lab works were waiting to give me another sleepless night.

In the midle of life and dead in doing my duty, i remember that i got another thing to do, my campus Christian organization asked me to lead the recycle Christmas tree project for the a state competition.

First thing that suddenly crossed my mind was that my class ever won the  first place of Christmas tree decoration in junior high school. But i really couldn't recall what was the tree made of (as i remembered, it just wasn't pine or tree branch).

So i decided to contact the one that incharged in that tree made, the second prefect at that time. Unfortunately, her number that saved in my phone wasn't in use anymore. I started to contact all her close friends at junior high school one by one asking her number, but i reach up to a girl name which sat me down and had me deep in thought.

Let's call her miss.A. She was a girl who is being liked by one of my other friend until now. This other shy fellow like miss.A since junior high school, so it's about 5-6 years now. And yet, it was so stuck, even not many who know it.

Therefore, i throw him another blind chances. Instead of asking miss.A, i sent an sms to that fellow :

me : hey, u hav *** phone number that in use now? if u don, can u ask miss.A?? (^_^)V

friend : he? Wat for? Ok, ill ask her.. 

me: some important things that i had to remember from junior hs. tell me asap as u know ya...

friend : waiting her reply now.. Btw why u not ask miss.A yourself?  

me: still askin that huh?? (-_-) i wont ask her... 

friend : why not? Tell me why.. 

me : lame.. dats ur job! (-_-) 

friend : wat the... Well, she probably sleep by now.. 

Here.. xxxxxxxxxxx, its miss.A number, just in case u hav some urgent matter.. remember, we're still not in relation status yet, me still waiting 4 her answer.. 

me : yea i know. thats why im giving u more chances.. 

friend : Meh -___-.. Just ask her...

No reply.. She already fall asleep.. 

I guess so. Subtle rejection by not replying his message, going offline if he chatted her,ignored him, etc etc. No, being rejected is still better than being ignored. But the worst is being rejected by being ignored.

That was what happening...

Next day was another hectic day and i was totally forget about the Christmas tree or the second prefect number. But in the middle of night, my phone beeped :

friend : Hav u ask miss.A yourself? Sometime she hav a habit to forget to reply.. ahahaha

i was too tired to take care of those thing that night so i leaved that message uncared. In few minutes another wild sms appeared :

friend : Demn salah kirim lg, k ***** kkirimnya td aarrghhh kacau.. (traslation : damn, i sent to wrong number. TO MISS.A NUMBER!! CATASTROPHE!!)

In instant, the atmosphere in my room changed...

and i brusted into laughter that maybe could awake my next room dorm neighbour...

and wild sms appeared again :

friend : Great, im just telling directly to her, about her habit.. Nice duh...

may reply to him was only like :

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahh.. 

friend : Arrgh u not helping.. Headache, she may not reply.. But at least she read it.. 

friend : Great im an idiot...

me : whoaa.. thats not including my idea. don suicide,Ok..!? relax, explain.. it will be just fine. any reply from her? 

friend : Wat give me goosebumps is when she not replying.. Can't sleep well tonite, dat 4 sure..

It may looked evil while my friend was dying near a heart attack, i was dying of laughter (even i still find it funny now). But this story had a good ending for all some hour later :

friend : Hah thx god she reply.. I'm look like an idiot.. At least i can rest a little easy.

well, the reply wasn't bad thing either, just a sorry from miss.A because of not answering his message...

So, i told him that he owed me, but he insisted that he didn't. Whatever but at last he got another chances to make a communication with someone he liked and even she replied back, a rare case...

Who knows that this incident might leads another bravery from him to communicate another love to her? Who knows... He still owed me.

Apathy

Talking about that word, first thing crossed my mind is Wang Yue. He is the 2 years old child that hit by two cars while eleven near passerby-s just apathetically walk away without even helping her. Very ironic yes.

Is apathy a result of modernization of this world? Has our people lost the humanity more day by day or it's just Chinese moral like many said?

I'm not a racist and i completely disagree with the last one.

Apathy, is not reasonless. Let me tell you a story from my day.

We studied in dentistry faculty which, everyone know, a lot of money will be spent. There's a work using the gyps. A friend of mine had just brought a plastic bag of gyps. Another friend ask her if she had any gyps left instead of buying a plastic by herself, the she gave some. And then another friend who knew it asked too, and another and another and another until when she was going to use it again, she found that the plastic had emptied.

That's not happened once or twice. Moreover, it's a common situation in my faculty. Another friend of mine even ever said,"When you bought a materials and brought it to the laboratory class, you have to ready to loose it all, though the instruction said you just need to use a little."

Well then, some student (including me) sometimes decide to "not saying out loud" (or 'hide' =D) when we have material stock during the class. Even if we knew someone need it. Apathy. But if you don't do that, yeah you has a pure gold heart, and you will run out your monthly transfered money before half of the month.

What am i saying here is, human is born as social creature. And every human does. So, how the apathy come? You probably have guess the answer : society.
Uncared environment, autocratic rules and policy, hardness of economic, how we treated by them, that will build our character. Our apathy rate.

The question comes always the same. If i were one of the passerby in Wang Yue accident, will i help her? Easy to answer by words. But when the real situation comes, will we be the good Samaritan?

you have to imagine everything, even the worst... because reality doesn't have a place for feelings... (an old grandma from volume 1 - Hunter x Hunter © Togashi Yoshihiro)

When Need Boyfriend???

That's question come to me after some dicussion with my friends...
When the girls gathered, two things that will come up to the conversation are (1)gossip and (2)boys.

So, this is a story of my friend that finally trying to get close with someone after being single (read : jomblo) for about twenty years (yea man, TWENTY YEARS). And tell you the truth, maybe a high school student will handle it very much better...
She's jumping around when she got text from him.
She's acting hysterically just seeing him passing by in the campus.
She's screaming to us when he tagging her in facebook status.
etc, etc...
Isn't it to much?

Maybe you find that funny, but for a girl that never had a realtionship before, it's...not really, but yeah, normal. Even if you are 20 or above.

If you remember your first relationship again, maybe it's about like that, it's just happened in younger age so it's perfectly normal.

But, if that was happening in university age, you can say it's kinda silly because it's already an era where you spoke love directly in front of the person that you like and making serious commitment for the real future.

So, we do need boyfriend at least in high school. That's my assumptions (for some people).
Then we won't be in too much euphoria when someone told that he loves you (finger crossed) and won't be too desperate if it doesn't work like the fairy tale that we always dreamt
because..., you've been through this once before, haven't you? So, it's always become eeeeasier for the next.

And the bad news is, i also haven't had one...

Gifts from Hearts...

yah..,
ga kerasa skrg udah 17 taon..

trims bwat smua nya yg udh bantuin aku sampe bisa kaya sekarang...

dan..,

ga nyangka ternyata aku bakal dapet pengalaman yg tak terduga...


waktu itu malem minggu kliwon...(hahah, ngasal ah!)
tiba - tiba ada 4 orang datang menyambangi kediamanku....

dua di antaranya memakai baju hitam - hitam dengan tampang mencurigakan..

wah,
aku mulai cemas..,apalagi banyak gosip kalo akhir - akhir ini densus 88 sedang mengintai kota solo dan sekitarnya..(dan ternyata gosip itu benar..)

dengan tubuh gemetar dan keringat bercucuran (lebaii) akhirnya aku beranikan diri membuka pintu..,
dan ternyata..

aku hampir pingsan ketika tahu bahwa yang datang adalah teman2ku sendiri..,teman2 smp ku..
masa teman2 smp ku direkrut densus 88..!? (dunia bisa terbalik)


singkat cerita..,
setelah perdebatan dan pergulatan yang cukup panjang akhirnya aku sadar bahwa mereka bukan densus 88..,
mereka ditugaskan oleh seorang mbah dukun yang ingin menitipkan sebuah barang keramat padaku dan ternyata barang itu adalah...


hadiah ulang tahun (duar..duar..)

udah cukup ah ngarang nya..,
langsung masuk ke inti aja..
barang keramat, eh, hadiah itu ternyata mengandung filosofi..(walaupun bikinnya mendadak kan... :D)


penasaran..!? (harus penasaran!)


baiklah,
kita mulai..

3

2

1

...

jeng jeng...


dari yg paling luar.. ada kotak persegi panjang dengan pita kuning..,

filosofinya akan dijelaskan oleh orang yg berwenang dibawah gambar...



kotak persegi
kata mbah dukun : kami memilih bentuk kotak bukan segitiga ato lingkaran karena itu tempat yang pas untuk menaruh hadiahmu... (hmm...ga penting ah)
kami tidak ingin setiap benda ataupun yang dimiliki seseorang ditempatkan di tempat yang kurang pas karena itu dapat merusak ataupun mengurangi fungsional benda tersebut.. (wah, sangat matematis..)



pita warna kuning
mbah dukun : walaupun kotak tersebut sudah menarik namun kami masih ingin memberikan sesuatu yang lebih menarik lagi buat u.... dan kami pikir pita itu cukup membuatnya lebih menarik n cantik jika dibandingkan kotak yang polos...
knapa gak dibuat polos itu karena kita sekarang sudah menjadi lebih dewasa jadinya kita juga harus bisa mulai mempernarik diri di hadapan semua orang agar kita tidak dinilai sebagai anak kecil lagi... (yang ne gak begitu penting).. (emank kye dari awal ga penting..!? :D)

selotip
mbah dukun : Karena kami ingin stiap hal yang kita miliki itu susah ato sulit sekali di ketahui orang lain. (ah, engga juga..) kami ingin menguncinya rapat-rapat, cos itu adalah privasi setiap orang... (loh,kalian kan udah tau,..bukan privasi lagi itu namanya.. :D)
karena jika setiap privasi itu diketahui ma orang lain maka setiap rahasia dan kelemahan kita pun akan di ketahui orang lain...
sehingga kita menjadi susah dalam mempertahankan kelangsungan hidup ini...
terutama jika kelemahan tersebut di ketahui oleh orang yang ingin menjatuhkan kita.. (wah, yang ini baru bagus... ^^)


berikut..,kita bukan tutupnya..,
dan
duaaaarrr......!!



ada 6 lolipop..,
mari kita tanya si embah apa filosofinya...

mbah dukun : Itu maksudnya kami ingin jadi teman yang bisa buat u happy terus n slalu ngerasa klo hidup ne semanis lolipop... n jumlahnya nandain jumlah temen2 yang ngasih tu hadiah.... (iya ya..,pertamanya aku juga g nyadar...)


lalu...,di bawah lolipop...



loh..,

bungkus koran..!?
mbah dukun : tu yang paling susah...
cos gak da bungkus yang lain... ( gubrakz !! )

masih ada lanjutannya..
kami ingin agar u gak ngebawa rasa happy itu berlebihan tapi juga agar kita dalam rasa bahagia itu melihat dunia luar yang penuh tantangan...
kebahagiaan...
kecemasan....
kesedihan...
keyakinan...
kebimbangan...
dan masih banyak lagi yang sa buat kita menjadi sosok yang lebih dewasa...
dalam menjalani kehidupan...
(ah, mekso ah... :p)


dan...,
dibalik kertas koran itu ada...



kyaaa... >.< plastik (ya ampunn, sampe plastik sgala... )
mbah dukun : karena kami gak ingin inti dari hadiah itu menjadi kotor kami ingin menjaga setiap ap yang kita miliki agar selalu bersih baik dari luar maupun dari dalam...

Jagalah hati, jangan kau kotori.
jagalah hati, cahaya Ilahi... (maaf, ga punya receh maz..., :D)

dan..,
hadiah utamanya.



DHOM-Vet !!
mbah dukun : kami memilih dompet karena menurut kami dompet merupakan suatu alat yang dapat digunakan untuk menyimpan benda-benda penting n mudah di bawa... (kalo itu mah aku sudah tau..)
kami ingin agar u selalu membawa setiap pokok2 kehidupan yang penuh arti baik dari teman-temanmu, musuhmu maupun siapapun kapanpun dan dimanapun agar u dapat menggunakannya untuk memecahkan setiap masalah kehidupan yang ada... (wah..,dalem!)
sama seperti uang yang selalu bermanfaat dimanapun ketika kita ingin membeli sesuatu...





nah..,itu dia sekelumit penjelasan dari mbah dukun tentang barang yg sangat dikeramatkan ini.....



yah..,
tak ada kata yg bisa saia ucapkan lagi selain terima kasih untuk kalian semua..,

kalian sudah memberikan hadiah teridah dalam hidup saia..,
bukan kotaknya,
bukan lolipopnya,
bukan dompetnya.. (lah terus apa..!?)




menjadi sahabat
dalam suka dan duka...




from friend..,
rose..


special thanks to :

Rebecca Octavia
a.k.a Rebec

Lucia Anindita D.P
a.k.a Luci

Julius Radian Galih H
a.k.a Phellow

Brian Pradipta
a.k.a Engkoeng

Riyadhi Hertansa
a.k.a Pak Leo

Edward Deicha
a.k.a Edo